They’re all gone

Posted: September 1, 2013 in Uncategorized

It seems to me that the majority of people who separate have kids who are at least 5 or up. I know there are lots who aren’t but it just seems to be the most common.

My situation was very different, but I tend to not go with the flow.

We have been apart for almost two years but two weekends ago was the first time that all the kids went to their dads house for overnight. My youngest has been with me every night since we split. She wasn’t even born when it happened.

The painfulness of being completely alone hadn’t hit until tonight because the past two weekends were SO crazy busy I didn’t have time to stop and think.

Maybe that’s been good, trying to ease me into this kidless state, but yet here I am anyways, trying to figure out how to make the hours and minutes pass quicker.

It’s strange because people say how great it should be to get a break from your kids, and I do have to have that I know, but it’s different when your getting a break because they are at “dad’s house.” Those words just should not be in any child’s vocabulary.

This is the start of a new phase. I am in complete control of my time and where to spend it when I am without kids. I think there will be an interesting division between getting work done and trying to do things I like to do as well. I would never say I like this, but I will say I am doing what I can to make the best of a sucky situation.

I have made a list of things I want to do that I could not do with kids (mostly because my kids are so little). I am focusing a lot on things that would refresh me so I can make the most of the time that I do have my kids.

Tonight that will include curling up in bed with a good movie, junk food and a glass of wine that will not be knocked over by sweet little feet.

There is an adage, “when life hand you lemons…” well I am going to make margaritas!

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