DC Week 2

Posted: September 21, 2013 in Uncategorized
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Between each week there is homework. I did complete my homework even if it was the morning of the next session, but there were no major life changing revelations. There were a few questions that were delving deeper into my thoughts and feelings and I admit though I did put an answer down the answer may have been “I am not going to answer this.” Not that the facilitator is going to check over my homework or anything but I just felt it looked better to have something written down for each one.

I find it really hard to write down those things because: what if my kids open my book and read it? What if I die and someone who is organizing my things reads it? The thing that holds me back the most is, “What if I write down everything and it scares me?”

The video session still looked like an infomercial but there were some really good sound bites. The first that struck me was the reason it hurts so much. It seems like a no-brainer but it make perfect sense when they said we were not made for this. We were not created to intertwine our soul, hearts and lives, to then rip it all apart. It’s like one of those fabric Band-Aids on soft skin that rips off when you pull it. We were never meant to un-become one.

We all laughed at the stupid things people say, even well intentioned people. We are such a culture of noise that silence is just so uncomfortable and we feel the need to fill it with useless syllables. Sometimes the best thing someone can do is be silent. We all just want to dignify our pain. It’s real, it hurts, and it’s not going away soon. It is a process.

Healing is a crucial part of this process. If we do not heal, then the next season of our lives will be built on a lie. We will be trying to supress all these emotions that bubble and lurch under the surface. We deny their existence but all the while try to medicate ourselves with another relationship, drugs, alcohol, overworking etc.

The only way through the pain is through the pain (taken from Freedom Session).

This is a season. It is definitely a winter season and a long one, but seasons end.

Some helpful words are:

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens… a time to weep and a time to laugh,  a time to mourn and a time to dance.

My time to laugh and dance will come, but I have to make it through the season of weeping and mourning first. I will get there and when I do, what a boogie it will be!


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