I don’t really love my life

Posted: June 19, 2014 in Uncategorized
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My life has had lots of ups and downs, twists and turns, bumps and bruises; you can even add many scars.

I don’t think I would care to say that I love my life as a whole. I have made many bad choices that have hurt others and many people have made choices that hurt me, but here’s what I do love:

I love myself- not in that “I’m better than anyone else” conceited sort of way but in an “I can look myself in the mirror (even naked) and I like me” way. It makes the times when it’s just me really ok.

I love my kids. Never ever did I imagine being a single parent but I am here and my kids are the most amazing people on the planet and my life would not be the same without them. They have helped me to be who I am and they are going to change the world. I could not have imagined how difficult this is until I have lived it. It makes me have unending respect for successful single parents and a lot of grace for those who aren’t.

I love that life is a serious adventure right now- my adventure. Life is what I make it and there are a few days per year when I yearn for routine or “normalcy” but quickly I remember that those things bore me right into troubles lap. So we do all kinds of new and adventurous things all the time. Many times I end up over my head, but we make it through and we have stories to tell. I’m sure if I had more patience the stories might be a bit better from my children’s perspective but I hope they see that I tried. That life didn’t have to end because the marriage did.

I love that I have learned from the pain and mistakes. I love that I am growing and maturing (mostly lol). I love that I have been through things that other people can relate to and I want to make it through so I can say, “if I can do it, you can too.”

I’ve received a lot of love and grace in my life and I love that where I have been keeps me humble and helps me show grace and love to others. We ALL need it!

  1. Loriann H. says:

    Thanks for your honesty A. I enjoy reading your blog. You are a good writer. I admire you for looking on the positive side of things.

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